Feeling Blessed

Feeling pretty grateful today for these two. We had some exciting plans for today that unfortunately didn't work out. Feeling a lot of emotions but mostly gratitude for these little miracles of ours! 

We had been preparing all month to do Invitro..shots, meds...all the fun stuff.  We had two frozen embryos that we had planned to use. Today was the big day. I woke up and was getting ready to go to my doctors office for the frozen embryo transfer....there was a good change that I could be pregnant in just a few hours. Unfortunately as I was getting ready I received a call from Dr. Slater. She apologized and said that the embryos didn't survive the thawing process. Both of them sliced( I guess thats the term.)  It took us by surprise. I didn't really even know what to think. I thought i would have closure if the embryos didn't work out. I always felt like we should use the embryos and I just thgouth if it didn't work I would fell closure because at least we tried...But I didn't feel that way. Maybe it was because we didn't even get to try. So there is always the possibly of doing the entire process over again like we did for Kins and Brecken. I'm just so torn. Part of me really wants to try again but then a huge part of me just feels content with what we are so blessed to have. This whole experience really made me even more grateful for our two little miracles. They bring so much joy into our lives and I feel lucky everyday to call them mine!